God's Will?

It has been a little while since I posted something... sorry! I have been so busy plus I wasn't sure what to say but something came up which made me think.

Many times we pray when we need something or are in a sticky situation. Majority of the time when that happens we ask for God's will to be done. But do we really mean that?

I know that I have ask for God's will to be done in some situations in my life. Sometimes the result that I get from praying that is not always what I want but realize that it might have been God's will. There are many times that we say we want to do God's will but then when God's will happens, we aren't happy cause it isn't how we want it. If we really mean it when we say "God's will," then we need to learn to be happy with whatever happens.

No regrets...

This post is probably going to be 2 rolled into 1...

There is a quote that I love... "Never ever regret something that once made you smile".

It has taken me 2 years to stop regretting certain things and certain relationships. Sometimes we need to look at the positives instead of the negatives or the results. The past few days I have been thinking about a particular relationship that ended badly. There are so many reasons for me to regret that relationship but the past few days I have been thinking about the positives and realized that I need to think about that. I realized how much fun I really had with that person. It wasn't just the actual relationship with that person that I missed, but it was also the friendship. I truly felt that I could talk to them about anything and he would just listen. He always made me laugh and smile. I have tried to rekindle that relationship and so far it has been a fail. I'm going to keep trying because I realized something else (this is where my other post comes in).

Tonight sitting down I was reading through some past notes and it hit me. I was wrong and jumping to conclusions. I feel so bad. I really would like to make things right but I have tried everything I know right now. I feel like I have a knot in my stomach because all the comments took me back to when we were together and what awesome times we had. I just wish I could rewind time and change things. I know that I can't do that, but I do know that I can do everything NOW to make things right. I am trying to do that and if I am given the opportunity I would love to talk things out and fix things. I just want to make everything the way it was before or at least try to.

Just remember to not regret anything.... especially if it once made you happy or smile.

Forgiveness...

Forgiveness....

it is probably one of the hardest things to do especially when someone hurts you really bad. Recently God has just put on my heart forgiveness. In the past I have been hurt really really bad by a few people and I have held a grudge towards them. One thing that I have learned is that no matter what they have done, I need to forgive them. Think about it... if God didn't forgive us for every time we sinned or did something wrong... we would have a problem. In Matthew 18:21-22, it says: "Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."

We all need to learn how to forgive and move on with our lives. Time is too precious to hold grudges towards people who have done wrong to you. We need to forgive them and move one... let them know we forgive them for doing whatever and just treat them like nothing happened. There is a time and point when we need to just put the past in the past and look towards the future.

There is a song that has really hit me hard every time i have heard it... it is called "The Call" but Matt Kennon... listen to it... it will make you think twice about things. You never know what will happen when you make that call, send that email, send that text message.

I did that today. I sent a message to someone and apologized for things and wanted to start over. If it changes things I don't know but at least I feel good about trying and know that I have done everything I can to make things right.

Make the call, send the text, send the message or email... you never know what the 3 words " I forgive you" will do.

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ~Paul Boese

Being Fearless...

We hear the word "fearless" a lot... whether it be the Taylor Swift song or even the Max Lucado book, but it makes me wonder if we really know what it means. According to the Webster's dictionary fearless means: "without fear; bold or brave."

To me fearless isn't really any of those... yeah I think that being fearless is not having fear but I think it goes deeper than that. Fearless is going into something not knowing what will happen. It is completely trusting God to do something amazing. One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5-6 which says" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path."

Yes I know... it is very hard to just fully and completely trusting God with everything. There are so many times that we would much rather do everything ourselves but a lot of times that actually doesn't turn out the way we thought it would and usually end up falling to our knees and asking God to help us. If only we had enough faith in God to trust Him with our life and everything in it. To me fearless is doing exactly that... having no fear that God will help me out... having no fear that He will continue to show me His plan for my life and not just what I want.

We need to go into our lives almost blind to what we want. We need to trust in God that He will take us on the journey He wants. We need to be fearless and not be afraid of what God has planned for our life!

First Post...

I have never blogged before but decided to because it seems like good therapy for stress and stuff. I don't know if anyone will read this, I just thought it would be a good idea to "journal" about my journey through the last years of nursing school.

About 2 months ago, I found out that I was about 2 points off from passing one of my basic nursing classes. I was frustrated because I always put so much time into studying but it didn't seem to be paying off. When it came to the final I had to make at least a 75 on it to pass the class. I ended up studying 20.5 hours for it and when the result came back, I thought someone had hit me with a huge brick. I got a 73 on the final and missed the passing grade but 1.5 points. I was discouraged at that point and went back to my room and cried. I talked to my mom and dad because I was confused.

I knew that God had called me to nursing and I couldn't understand why God would let me go through all of this for nothing. My mom told me that I needed to trust God because He knew what He was doing. I blew that off, then realized that He obviously does know what He is doing.

Sure enough, I was given the opportunity to take the course over again THIS summer. If I had not been given this opportunity, I would have been held back an entire year, which would have been terrible. Therefore I came back to school and am retaking the class. So far this has been such a blessing because my teacher is using me as a leader. I have thanked God everyday for giving me the opportunity to come back and take this class. I have a feeling something amazing is going to happen this summer.

I will try to keep blogging about my 8 week journey through this class and what God is showing me through all of it.